How to remove the self-destruct button…

((sigh)) if only I knew!

As you have probably noticed the blogs have slowed… and so too has my weight loss.  ((sob))

I had my first fill (3ml) the other week and Dr Harsha said that I’d feel no restriction.  Well, all I can say is “no shit Sherlock!”  The only ‘restriction’ I have is that things tend to not want to go down.  I still get hungry; and am still able to manage to eat the naughties (ice cream, cookies, chocolate etc).  Now I knew that this would happen, but was kinda hoping that even though we all know that the band isn’t a miracle cure, it would help just a little bit.

It seems that not matter what I do diet-wise, I always manage to find the self-destruct button.  I sabotage myself for no real good reason — except that I love food waaaaaay too much.  Unfortunately the symbiotic relationship I have with food is that it doesn’t want to leave me… instead of being digested and flushed down the loo, it decides to take residence on my butt or elsewhere!

I guess I shouldn’t be so harsh on myself.  Even though I snack out at times, the quantities that I am eating is far less.  And in all honesty it is creeping up to that TOTM where chocolate becomes my staple food!

We went to HarborTown the other weekend.  I bought a shirt 2 sizes smaller than usual… as size 18!! Okay, so it’s still heffer-sized but it’s definitely a smaller heffer! and shoes also a size 39 instead of 40… so my feet were fat???? hmmmm… they didn’t feel like it, but they musta been.  I had noticed a couple of pairs of new-ish shoes were loose, but put it down to them stretching from wear.  And yes the rings are still falling off… even moreso now, had to actually put them on the middle finger (which feels weird) because they slipped off when I was walking around!

So I guess the weight is still steadily going down… but just not at such a fast rate.  I need to do optifast for another 2 weeks again… wonder if I could manage it??? hmmm… might just have to consider it….

Well… until next time Fatty….